A long time friend now has decided to stop talking to me and in my server, he's always been very critical of tranners and I his resentment towards me has reached a critical point it seems.
In the lead-up to this moment, every interaction we had eventually devolved into him being super annoyed at anything I said or did. Still I tried to keep things going as normal, but it only delayed the inevitable.
My server is actually just a small circle of friends, we've been together since 2021, so it's quite the lengthy friendship that seems to have just imploded. His abscence is very noticeable, and it's only been like 3 days; everything's just more quiet. Life feels more quiet.
I think the universe is trying to get me to start a new arc, I've stagnated for too long and don't really get to know new people anymore.
Looking back, I can notice my life going in a rhythm of settling in a set of habits and friends, then this stability getting disturbed, and then me feeling like a sort of vagrant, looking for a new stability. Two notes: Stability and instability, familiarity and uncertainty, settling and vagrancy, beating one after the other over and over.

blah, what pretentious slop

when i went to save this entry, i instinctively named it 2025-04-04, but it's the 9th of april. what? already?